baumtod music mix: dec. '17 - exit bliss, enter entropy.

final music mix - leaving 2017 behind, eyeing up 2018.

i should maybe write a few words for a gone & a new year, but my head is currently pretty empty & dry. that's probably also the reason why i keep posting so sparsely and adding a huge delay. i am truly sorry. remember, at the beginning of 2017, when i was hoping to catch up with everything and maybe start some realtime blogging? writing more? doing more? well, you see, it all didn't work out.

so for this year i keep it low, the bar of expectation. 2017 wasn't really great for me ( as apparently all years turn out to be, or is it just me? ) i mean, there were good moments ( vacations always are, concerts, too, little meet-ups with friends ), but there were more shitty ones to be honest. on a personal level i felt really sad, empty, longing, burnt out most of the time. exhausting stuff was thrown in, cancelled concerts, hospital visits ( my brother was diagnosed with testicle tumor - which was bad, but he got through it, which brought hope that he might change his life, but as of now little did change... ), my car broke down completely & i had to buy a new one, i had more than one breakdown at work & i had to come to terms with the fact that romance is simply not on my life plan. in addition to that the world has been in turmoil all the way through 2017 and it still looks like it's on the edge of world war III.

so what to make of that? to be honest, i don't know. for me only a few small things are on my agenda. staying calm when stress is increasing. not engaging in bad-mouthing & drama at work. scale down lengthy talks. try being less self-centered & listen more to what other people have to say. taking myself out of the equation, like... emotionally. not getting hyped up about stressors.

little things, you know? 2018 will be a year of little expectations for me.

what will it be for you?

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