autumn delight in my parent's garden. november 2019 will forever be a moment of time of note for me, for i had to deal with the very real possibility of having breast cancer. my gynecologist located some suspicious lumps and he sent me to a specialist for further determination. i was very scared, but i also kind of felt like i was hanging in an inbetween space, not really understanding the whole matter, not feeling like it was real, like it was a thing that actually happened to me. i very much tried to calm myself down, look at it from a distance, until i got more detailed answers, kind of isolating my fear to a rear view in the back of my mind. on the day i had that appointment, though, i dreaded it all, i dreaded the thought of having to deal with this, of having proof that my being was actually rotten, that my personality poisoned my body. you have no idea how relieved i was when they finally told me that the lumps were benign fibroadenomas. they are actually more common than yo...
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