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oceania.

i'm back from my vacations by the baltic sea. i already worked a week so far. it's difficult to return to my reality, especially when the sceneries i've visited were so dreamy and out of the world. there's a thought manifesting in my mind. moving up to northern germany, living by the sea, enjoying the rumble of waves, the screeching of  sea gulls, searching for pretty pebbles and stones, putting my hands & feet into the soft sandy beaches. and the architecture. clinker brick houses, blue, wide and huge windows. everything. and always the sea. i could stand and stare all day... my mind freeing itself from unnecessary thoughts.

well, there's always something that makes the realization of your dreams not so easy as you imagine it to be. i have friends here, my family is already three hours away from me... could i cope with not frequently seeing the people i love? it's different from my first move so far away from home. when i moved to wiesbaden i had gone through a breakup two years ago and it still bothered me a lot. i wanted to get away from the little world i grew up in. now, four years later i truly value my time with my parents and the times i visit my homestate. i kind of want to return, but a voice inside me tells me that it's just because of nostalgia. everything i crave for is because of nostalgia. i can't let things that happened in the past just disappear from my mind. i don't like the future at all. it is my biggest fear.

well. i'm back. lost a bit of myself again.
pictures will follow soon.

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