tidbits and icescapes.

so, i have to apologize for not updating. but why should i apologize? this little blog is just a diary of happenings in my life, and no one seems to be interested in it but me, which is totally okay with me. but oh boy, stuff is happening too fast right now and i can't really grasp it. i have the feeling that soon i'll be 30, then 40, then 50, and nothing will have ever changed. i can't even look past the 50. i guess, i will not exist anymore by then. i love what happens at the moment, all the gatherings and visits and trips. all the future happening around me. but not for me. only other people seem to expect a so-called future. with plans and goals. i try to enjoy the little life i still have. you'll never know when desperation and anxieties and deprivation comes back.

well, to end these thoughts, some pictures. of little things and icy days.

more illustrations of walther moers' books.

few weeks ago we had wonderful icy days. so we went ice walking!

little maya.

preserved feather.

it was so funny to feed the birds on the ice, they slipped all the time to get a few crumbs of bread.

ice man!

it was a beautiful day.

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ghost of nature.

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