ghost of nature.

i will move to wiesbaden soon. i decided i should not let this chance elapse. it's a huge footstep for me, not only because of the little amount of time i have. but wiesbaden may be a big chance for me, work- and life-wise and i really shouldn't dump that. even if it's closely connected with a lot of stress the next weeks. i just want to see if i can endure all of this.

everything comes crashing down. i'm sorry that i'm not able to write more cheerful things at the moment. my life is changing a huge lot right now and it makes me sick.

recently muse is receiving my love again. strange how sometimes music can be so fitting to your real life. today i loved this song very much. Fear, and panic in the air I want to be free From desolation and despair And I feel like everything I saw Is being swept away And I refuse to let you go I can't get it right Get it right Since I met you Loneliness be over When will this Loneliness be over? Life, will flash before my eyes So scatter our worlds I want to touch the other side And no one thinks they are to blame Why can't we see When we bleed, we bleed the same ...

though i have a lot of things going on that i'm not happy over at the moment, i shall post the first of my weekly glee diaries. the laptop of my father and my new bed linen with mooses on it! new hair colour! i know you would all identify the obama puppet as obama. but is it the same with angela merkel? my first thought was: what has chucky ( from horrormovie 'child's play' ) to do with the future president of the united states? shadow. i'm gonna miss her when i really am told to go working at a different place. having a carnival party deluxe! ( me, cat, sylvie ) ( we look a tiny bit ... um... tired? haha. we made those photos close to 5 am in the morning! )

trying out the outfit for carnival performance today. it's lacking long hair and huge necklaces still. i'm supposed to do janis joplin as a devil. i know that i don't look like her in any ways. the outfit itself isn't that original. i don't care. i don't even have a good sense for good outfits after all.

my job is not that steady as i've thought. hopefully everything will be better soon. i'm scared.

the left side of my face is half dead. i was at the dentist's today and they made a new filling, because i had a hole. and... the dentist thought he should give me an anaesthesia, 'cause it might've hurt otherwise. slowly it's going down and i feel a dull pain in my mouth. hopefully it will go away. if not, i have to get root treatment. and this. is NOT nice. i think i liked the feeling of a half-numb face more than this creepy pain.

welcome on my new blog. i decided to open a writing place where i can post on a daily base, even if it's just a random thought or a picture or a thing that made me glee. well, and since i'm a tiny bit tired of my livejournal, i tried to start up a new thing. take a look around, maybe you like the little - sometimes - useless rantings i do blog, or even the pictures i post! i'm no artist, just a normal human being that likes to post about it's life, even though it can be pretty boring at times.